Wednesday, July 23, 2003 @ 10:17am | Entry no.274 | stupid computer. stupid aol... stupid everything ||   mood    indescribable   || ||   music    "you've got a way" _ dj encore   || Ew. AOL and AIM isn't working at the moment. Not that I expect anyone to be online at this hour anyway. Pat called me last night. Actually messaged me first, and I blindly tried to write back to him, and then the kid calls me. ((sighs)) I got my arse up and talked to him for a little bit before I started losing my voice. We talked about a few things, and we touched upon the whole issue about the kissing. And the whole thing was brought up again about how if I didn't have a boyfriend, blah blah blah..., which seems to be a running theme nowadays. Pat knew about my fight with my sweetie, and that was another one of those reasons why the kiss didn't go any further than a peck. He didn't want me to kiss him only because of spite for my sweetie. Which wouldn't have been the case anyways. I don't know. I've got a lot of explaining to do. ((sighs)) Not looking forward to it at all. And ew some more. I just lost about 4 paragraphs because my computer froze. Yuck. I really don't feel like going over it all again, because now I've got things to do to occupy my time. Ah, I'll try to type it anyways. As for plans last night with Kare, she wanted to watch the new Mandy Moore movie, whereas I would have rather had my eyeballs gouged out with a rusty nail. So that went going out to the movies. We both weren't very hungry, so that went the usual dinner. I wasn't in the mood to hang out with anyone other than her, so that went all the other plans. I'm a very anti-social person when I'm grouchy. So, instead, I opted to read fairy tales til I fell asleep, where I was rudely awaken by Pat around midnight or so. Unfortunately, that one phone call threw me off the rest of the night. I kept waking up every hour or so after that, and I finally gave up on sleep around 5am. I'm probably going to wind up falling asleep around 8 or something tonight. I can already hear some people, "Nan! You can't hang!" Yeah, bite me. No, seriously, bite me. ((smiles)) Anyways. I'm going to get all caught up in the lay0uts because the requests are just building up and no one's really answering them but me. Damned ungrateful brats. I should be evil and do evil things. But I won't. <33 toodles unburden your soul  ( memory/edit )

Wednesday, July 23, 2003 @ 06:55pm | Entry no.275 | "I hate Jimmy... nah, I love him" -- Mikey ||   mood    sick   || ||   music    techno love remix   || Rampant drinking over here. Shame, shame. People are passed out. It's not even night yet. For shame! Bad little kiddies. And I'm tired. So very very tired. My eyes hurt, my feet hurt, and my wallet is considerably lighter. Thankfully, funds are going to be replenished very shortly or else, I'll be a very sad midget indeed. Sad and broke, but with lots of pretty pink underwear. Yes, I'm still going on about the pink underwear. I've turned into a rambling idiot. Yippee-skippee. I've got another doctor's appointment set for August 6th. How fun. I'll be having my bloodwork done finally. I get to see exactly how sick I am. Not looking forward to that because overactive imagination + a tendency to be a hypocrondriac. Goody, I have lots to look forward to. And it turns out that I'm really far behind on my shots. I think I need about 6 or so. Eep. I'm going to get poked! And not in the fun way either. Hehe, poking. ((nudge, nudge, wink, wink)) Anyways, I'm being lazy and not going to get my prescription filled so I can start taking antibotics and start getting better. Oh, and I have even more of an incentive to get my ass to get my medicine. Brian brought strawberries and whipped creme over. I absolutely adore strawberries and now, I absolutely adore him for bringing them over. Such a sweetheart. Maybe I'll stop trying to start a fight with him all the time. I'm still not getting the medicine though. And ow, eating those few strawberries definitely just tore up my throat. ((cries)) daddy! Blah, anyways, I'm debating on whether or not to swallow my pride and call my sweetie up. Today is his day off, and.. well... he should have called and he hasn't. Great. And I'm leaving either Friday night or Saturday morning and I won't be back for at least a week, maybe even longer. And it's not exactly the greatest of things to leave and have the relationship in complete disarray. Should I just call him, and forget about the things that are bothering me, or should I just keep my space away from him for the time being until I work everything out? Either way, I am not getting dumped. I'll be damned if I'll ever let that happen again. Once in my life was enough, thankyouverymuch. I don't know. I just hope everything works out. <33 toodles note I posted a few pics of myself and they're located in the infomation part on my journal. The one picture with me in the hat, well that was the newest one. I was just playing around in that picture, I don't dress like that... ever. unburden your soul  ( memory/edit )